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role the dice and have some faith

Acceptance is the first step for anything. No matter what your life throws at you, or how many times people knock you down, you have to accept what has happened. the past is the past and it cannot be changed. Depending on how you view your future it’s eitha already set for you, or you choose the path you go down; either way things aren’t going to always go according to plan. You may expect one thing and get something completely different which can be a good thing or a bad thing.

When life gets to you and starts to break you down, take a step back and learn how to breathe through it. Once you finally gain your composure, it’s a grand feeling. We all need to have a way to settle ourselves, a way to keep your mental and emotional health.

Knowing what you want and what you need are completely different. You’re not always going to get what you want, but you will always get what you need one way or another.

As you can tell from my previous post, I have had a rough time lately. Ive tried to …

Freshin' the November.

Hello everyone! Its been too long for neglecting my blog so well. Im sorry, I am too busy for this week. & always been busy. So how are you, baby?

I hope this month will bring the essence of something new which could bring a peaceful to my life. Of what had break my heart twicely on the same weeks. But its okay, Im already heal by the first heartbroken. The second one is because of what I call them as the new besties. -its not anymore.

Im sorry to say that but what have both of you done is totally break me. If it is my wrong, please forgive me. Im sorry for being coward because I didnt face to face, talk about this matter in front of you. I really couldnt. From 6 to 5 to 4 to 3 to 2 to 1. We all have been separated. I realize it so much. It just a temporary. Is that what we call sahabat? They absolutely didnt know that Im such a person who always test people. I tested them to know how stand they could be with me thru thick and thin. How true they are! But naah.. Im not going to sa…

The third person.

I come back with a different story. This is about the third person. I wonder why this kind of people were really annoying because They Would Destroy Someone's Wonderful Life.

Its happen in relationship and marriage.

Well I see. Sometimes we cant simply blame the third person and doesnt mean that your partner is innocent. Some quote says. "Your partner is beautiful, smart and kind, why search another else? Why cheat? Its just like you are throwing a diamond and picking up a stone." Ladies and gentlemen. Both are same. If you have found a good person that you're really needed in your life, that dont give a damn to you, and means everything to you, so you shouldnt leave them. You are absolutely will made the biggest mistake in your life. The tips to have a last long relationship is do not having a close friend *opposite to your gender. Teman tapi mesra camtu. Because once you'd be close to someone, you will have a little bit feeling towards them. Get it? Tipu kalau …

Rat Dissection!

Im sorry for late posting about this. It had happened two or three weeks ago. So yah, the second experiment for biology is dissection. K, first time in life.

Tanda Jodoh Kuat Bersama Si Dia

Secara umum yang kita tahu, tanda-tanda jodoh adalah keserasian, saling memahami, masing-masing pandai bertanggungjawab dan saling bertolak ansur. Itu adalah secara asasnya. Tapi dalam artikel kali ini, kita akan membincangkan perkara yang berbeza. Masih tentang tanda-tanda jodoh kita kuat bersama seseorang tetapi dalam konteks yang sedikit berbeza. Bukan senang untuk membicarakan soal jodoh kerana ia milik Allah. Macam mana pun manusia boleh merancang dan berusaha, selebihnya hati kita harus kuat menyerahkan soal jodoh kepada Allah.

Orang kata cinta tidak selalu bersama jodoh, tetapi jodoh selalu bersama cinta? Tidak semestinya. Kisah cinta nyata bukan macam kisah cinta dalam novel. Tidak semestinya sesuatu perkahwinan itu membahagiakan. Mereka ada jodoh, tetapi mereka masih tiada cinta. Jadi jangan terlalu menekan atau mempercayai sesuatu mitos. Jadi apa yang penting sebenarnya adalah cinta dan jodoh. Ia harus datang bersama. Jika sesebuah cinta itu tidak ada dalam hati seseorang, s…

A girl keeps bringin’ sunshine.

"Don’t be the girl who needs a man, be the girl a man needs." -Unknown.
She's broken. She keeps lie to herself that there's nothing happen. She was unable to swallow the facts. She keeps blaming herself that she was the one who doesnt fight for what she want in her life. She's speechless. She actually didnt know whats wrong with this relationship. She is the one that always says sorry, even if it's not her fault. She fake her smile to everyone just want to hide the pain that she had been through. She's the one who sincerely give the love and willing to do anything just want to make someone that she love to be happy. At last, he left her. Alone. In the dark. With unreasonable reason. She's become a trash that simply threw away by him. And now, she had realize, that the guy she's truly love doesnt love and care about her. Is this a drama? With a weak and tender heart, she's trying so hard to be strong. To stand on her own two feets without him. …

September hauls of new semester.

Hello. I asked dad for money in the early morning. He gave me a hundred and its all gone in 3 hours. Hahahah. Told ya, Imma big spender. Heyy. I brought some new stuff for this second semester. And also excited to meet boyfriend. I miss him so much. So here's are the new hauls that i brought today.

Here's my new circle lenses from Vivian with three tones. The power is 1.5x. With diameter, 17.2mm. Okay, this is the most large circle lense that I brought, before this I have those with 16.0mm and it look awkward (if I wore). Well, this is the example of model wearing circle lenses that I brought. Pretty satisfied!

Two bows and of course, chocolate mirror. There's two more stuffs that I didnt show because i forgot to photo it. Ring and cardigan. A white cardigan. Now, I found it difficult to search for my clothes. I dont know how to style it with hijab. No more shorts. Thats why I just buy a cardigan, to cover all my short and sleeveless top. I also didnt wear my short dre…

Can it just be natural?

I think I wanna express all my feeling here. In my blog. Of what I had felt since I was small. Being hoped by someone. What a confuse situations. I really wanna get out of this such haunted. Its stressing me out. I cant be the one who was being hoped to much by someone. God, give me strength. Besides, I would have try so much to do the best, to make people happy, to see.. their smile. But what about me? Am I really happy with those fakes and hypocrites? I just want to be myself. Seriously this tear me up. I need someone who I can lean on one shoulder, understand my problem. I dont tell him about this, cause seems like he was hoping for me in which Im not sure I can fulfill his wishlists. Im feeling of undeserved to have a guy like him. I am no where near perfect. Seeing his tweet just ruin my eyes. Burst into tears. Again God, give me strength. I have done my best. I had try. But can it just be natural?? Let it be.. One day you will realize the different. That moment which your eyes …

A little piece of boredom.

What's happening? 
- having a boring day.. and stomach ache.
- little brother is having UPSR examination and he screwed off.
- hair had been cut on the last two days.

Begin my day with a glass of milk. And whats up with my plan during semester break on previous post? I have designed a new theme on blogskin, I have cleaned my room.  Oh yah, buying new clothes still undone and i have to cancel of meeting boyfriend because I think I might be spending time with family more. Sister will be back home on this Friday. Yayy!   So without wasting my time by doing nothing at home, I sit in front of my notebook and blogging. Oh yeah! Im so surprise when I saw my new skin become skin of the day on Lets check by today. Thank you for all supporters and for those who rate mine. It was Tumblr inspiration which I found more neat and clean. Well people, I am more into tweeting this couple day. Do follow! Mention me here: @flouera

Im out for three days.

Hello people. This is really really quick post. I better be off to study after finishing type this entry and publish it then. Yah so, it might be typo as well. Srry, x. Well well, I have a camping tomorrow after the last paper of examination. Its maths. And definitely stressing me out. I will try my best but Im not hoping for A's anyway cause the questions are really complicated. For the camp, its actually a War Games of Asperians organized by Foundation in Agriculture Science, UPM. Actually, I feel some kind of laziness going there because I ever went for camp before and its really tiring and lack of sleep. Naahh.. and the worst part is the location in Tanjung Malim, Perak and there might have no line connection. Ah furthermore, i didnt bring my phone there. I will definitely miss boyfriend so much! I didnt get the same group with him. Erghhh..! I hope to see him there. Maybe and just maybe. Naahh.. so sad here. Thats all. I have to stop here and study. Study is definitely stress…

A Day Before Birthday.

Or Nurul Adilla Fateeha. The name given by her mother but Fateeha does not include in birth certificate.
A eighteen-to-be girl who have been dreaming about seventeen years, eleven months and 29 days (average). She's stuck between both. Real and Fake. Strong and patiently she walked in her life with pain and happiness. Hopelessly. Searching for herself. Picking up her heart that had been broke into pieces. So tomorrow will be her precious day. Eighteen and legally. The only thing she want is when she smile sincerely for the whole day like nothing will stop her. That could be her best present. Eventhough tomorrow will begin the war of final examination... MISTAKE. That she had done before could be her worst nightmare. She may not perfect. She has some flaws here and there. She would try to learn from mistakes to redeem it. And she has no intention to break someone's heart. This moment, she would try to be a good ordinary girl. Leaving the dark side and enter the bri…

32 Questions Get to Know Me Tag!

1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? Yes, it is more sweeter and a kind of respectful.
2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress? Hurm well, i prefer to not wearing sexy outfits. So, a big poofy dress
3. Are diamonds a girl's best friend? Yes. its my favourite kind of jewels.
4. Is your hair up or down today? It was super mess. Dont ask about it.
5. Do you straighten your hair? Yes. two times.
6. Favorite mascara? As long as the mascara makes the eyes big, thick and smooth curves.
7. Do you get your nails done? Nope. I have no time to do that.
8. Small or large purses? Of course, large purses.
9. Jeans or sweats? sweats.
10. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that's uncomfortable? sometimes.
11. Do you text message a lot? Not really. I just reply an important text.
12. Whats your favorite color? grey and pink and green.
13. Heels or flats? Both. but heels could make me higher.
14. Would you ever leave the house without makeup on? A big no no NO.
15. Walmart or Target? Target.

How to make a marquee image?

Hello. Thank you to @farrahmidori for request a tutorial via twitter. LOL. Long time I didnt make a tutorial on blog. Alright. Did you see a marquee image on the leftside (on sidebar). The images were automatic scroll upward and when we hover it, it will stop. So yah, Im gonna teach you all and give the code. Its simple by the way. Hope it will work on your blog.

Step 1 :-
You can paste this code at anywhere you want it to.
<marquee direction="UP" height="150" scrollamount="5" onmouseover="this.setAttribute('scrollamount', 0);" onmouseout="this.setAttribute('scrollamount', 5);">PLEASE PUT IMAGE CODE HERE</marquee>
Did you see PLEASE PUT IMAGE CODE HERE. ? Okay, that is where the img code going to insert. So yah, thats all. One more, you can change the scrollamount. The higher the number, the fastest images scroll. :)

Trying to make a vlog.

An emotionally night. I know its been so busy. Okay, never mind. Im just miss him which I might think that it is not important, aight? :)
So this is my first video. Ahha. Awkward! I would try to improve it soon. Sorry for bad lightening, a messy background and the low quality of voices (which something wrong with the mic, so please increase your volume to the max) Aaandd hopefully there is no comment about the video. Im just testing! :D

This is is pretty bored which lead me to make a video.

Of the first August.

Welcome to the new month of the year 2012. Its August now. I have some good and bad news to tell you bout this month which it probably came with the essence of depression.
Raya Aidilfitri.Break about two weeks.My birthday on 29th.Final exam on 29th. Okay thats all. First i will celebrate (maybe) Aidilfitri and holiday about two weeks and after the last break, the final exam will start on 29 August which is my birthday! Naahh.. I might not celebrate those two special days in this year. Okay.. I think negatively too much. All in my mind now is exam exam and exam. I might pretend that I dont know what will happen on the day of 29 August which is very meaningful to me. I am legally eigtheen :')

So here are the pictures collection on this week (also at past). First picture is when I was studying for english test, second is the model of atoms but I played with it. Third was when I went to the science museum, it shows us about the type of animals which i found the biggest rat! Yes, its ex…

Cleaning moment.

Seventeen forever, shake it and perfect two.
 Meet my dad just now and he's giving me some money. waahh.
 We are so cute to be together :3
Kinda bored in the morning and he just brighten it
 Too hot here.
 Im fasting lol.
 Taeyang: You're my. Click me.

Salam Ramadhan.
And happy fasting. 3 hours left to break fasting. Yeayy! Oh noo.. I have to break fasting alone today. Ah, first time im having break fasting alone. Sho sad.. So today, i had clean my partition when staying alone in dorm. The wardrobe, the floor, the bed and clothes.

Ah not bad. I refolded all my clothes in the wardrobe. 
Plain pink bedsheet and its really comfortable. I cant wake up in this morning.
Yeah. still leave it like that. Got many works and assignment to do. I have one big fan and mini laptop fan. Hehe.. And the books were like here and there. My table was a bit mess but its easy to clean it all.

New Hauls on July.

Today I went for shopping at Sogo, KL with my mum and dad. We're just send my sister at KL Sentral. Ah.. starting to miss her. She's going back to Johor Bahru while I will going back to college at night after berbuka. So, here's ze new hauls that I brought today. Okay, you can view all the picture of hauls below. What am I going to say here, there's a guy ask me going out. Out of the blue he want to meet me. Actually, he also ex-Asperian who's taking foundation in agriculture science same with me but we're neva meet in UPM. Maybe we're ever bum into but we're didnt recognize each other. I know him via facebook and we have had a conversation before. Oh gosh! I felt guilty for him. I cant going out with guys aannd tak nak pun. So, he text me about two times but I didnt reply. Naahh, that because he's kinda flirting and thats why I ignore him. Haha. Can we're just be friend?

Yes. I will be wear this. I chose these six hijabs although i was unclear …

Have a blessed Ramadhan.

Time flews so fast! First Ramadhan started on 21st of July. Aaannd, Happy Birthday to my little brother, Amir. He's got scrabble from my aunty while I have nothing to give him. The worst thing  when I forgot that today was his birthday. Poor lil brother. I also met my sister from Johor Bahru. Welcome home. Now, the family's members are completed in this house. So yesterday, after agriculture practical, I came back home with boyfriend by train. At first, we waited for my sister at KL Sentral but her journey takes too long and have to wait for her about a hour. Sorry girl, we cant wait for you, I went back by train all alone. Without. Him. *sad face* LOL. Reached home at 10pm. My mum fetched me at KTM while my dad fetched my sister at KL Sentral. Ayda! Your hair has grown. Thats was the first sentence came from my mouth before I start to tease her. Ahha.. Okay, all i wanted to say here, Havva blessed Ramadhan and happy fasting day! Hope that this month of Ramadhan will be the gr…

New haul: Samsung Galaxy Ace :3

This is one of the reason why i love my dad. The gadgetmaniac! :D You know kann, I do post about my problem that Im gonna buy a Samsung but Im afraid if my dad scolded me. Click this. I've got this new Samsung on the last Saturday. Thank you dad! Well, i know that he just brought a new Samsung Galaxy Note.. Okay.. Im so jealous. 
My dad did ask me why I wanna new phone, so I just answer that I want to play Instagram! Haha.. Thats all. Since the blackberry didnt have the instagram. Ah shit. I really bored using a blackberry about six month. 

So I really active on Instagram now. I blog and pictured. Haha, do follow me: @lalamonsterz

Starlight Stalker. ♥

Is listening to Tujhe Dekha To Hai Jaana Sanam
 I miss to hear bollywood songs. The old movie one. haha
 Please be fastah to fetch me boy. Im all alone here.
I hoped i wont be your other burden. I just need a protector.
 Approaching midnight.
 I eat three times today. Thats bad :(
Link to this lovely music.

I know, you're miss my journal right. haha. A huge apologize from me here. I am very busy on this week. My second test is just around the corner. 16 July I guess so. Seriously, thats making me really tired. I slept about five to six hour every night including the nightmares. Out of the blue, updating my blog had crossed my mind just now and I'M BACK :3

Hello, I just moved to Kolej 13 on Sunday and whats make me so happy when my roommates was my gang. Dharshu, Fydah and Eyfa here. Ah our dorm will be bising nanti (noisy soon). Okay, I dont have any idea to write. Let the picture express my day. I also went to Sunway Pyramid with my gang on last Saturday. Firstly, ignore me in the…

Yesterday came with an emotion of sadness.

Secrets and Fix You by One republic and Coldpaly
Class start every 8 o'clock everyday in a week.
Im not deserved to you but I have a heart. Im not your game.
I dont even know my mood.
Its raining heavily and you know that Im phobia of rain.
We're having a great dinner !

Hello people. Im back again. And of course. This blog would never be shut down. Fix you was the current song that I listened to. And hey, Im having a great dinner with my friends, Bella, Burn, Fatin, Eyfa, Dharshu, Fydah, Zul and Raffiq. Yes. They are my gang. Study together, having a meal like almost together. I spend my time alot with them and yes again Im happy with my new culture and environment. Dont think that Im not missing my friends in Rawang. I miss them a lot right now. Fighting and bleed. Ahha. No Im kidding  So what Im gonna say here. You wont believe that Im wearing hijab (first time) in class and im not take it off from the morning until evening. Wahh! hahaha. I know my friends in ex high …