Showing posts from September, 2012

A girl keeps bringin’ sunshine.

"Don’t be the girl who needs a man, be the girl a man needs." -Unknown.
She's broken. She keeps lie to herself that there's nothing happen. She was unable to swallow the facts. She keeps blaming herself that she was the one who doesnt fight for what she want in her life. She's speechless. She actually didnt know whats wrong with this relationship. She is the one that always says sorry, even if it's not her fault. She fake her smile to everyone just want to hide the pain that she had been through. She's the one who sincerely give the love and willing to do anything just want to make someone that she love to be happy. At last, he left her. Alone. In the dark. With unreasonable reason. She's become a trash that simply threw away by him. And now, she had realize, that the guy she's truly love doesnt love and care about her. Is this a drama? With a weak and tender heart, she's trying so hard to be strong. To stand on her own two feets without him. …

September hauls of new semester.

Hello. I asked dad for money in the early morning. He gave me a hundred and its all gone in 3 hours. Hahahah. Told ya, Imma big spender. Heyy. I brought some new stuff for this second semester. And also excited to meet boyfriend. I miss him so much. So here's are the new hauls that i brought today.

Here's my new circle lenses from Vivian with three tones. The power is 1.5x. With diameter, 17.2mm. Okay, this is the most large circle lense that I brought, before this I have those with 16.0mm and it look awkward (if I wore). Well, this is the example of model wearing circle lenses that I brought. Pretty satisfied!

Two bows and of course, chocolate mirror. There's two more stuffs that I didnt show because i forgot to photo it. Ring and cardigan. A white cardigan. Now, I found it difficult to search for my clothes. I dont know how to style it with hijab. No more shorts. Thats why I just buy a cardigan, to cover all my short and sleeveless top. I also didnt wear my short dre…

Can it just be natural?

I think I wanna express all my feeling here. In my blog. Of what I had felt since I was small. Being hoped by someone. What a confuse situations. I really wanna get out of this such haunted. Its stressing me out. I cant be the one who was being hoped to much by someone. God, give me strength. Besides, I would have try so much to do the best, to make people happy, to see.. their smile. But what about me? Am I really happy with those fakes and hypocrites? I just want to be myself. Seriously this tear me up. I need someone who I can lean on one shoulder, understand my problem. I dont tell him about this, cause seems like he was hoping for me in which Im not sure I can fulfill his wishlists. Im feeling of undeserved to have a guy like him. I am no where near perfect. Seeing his tweet just ruin my eyes. Burst into tears. Again God, give me strength. I have done my best. I had try. But can it just be natural?? Let it be.. One day you will realize the different. That moment which your eyes …

A little piece of boredom.

What's happening? 
- having a boring day.. and stomach ache.
- little brother is having UPSR examination and he screwed off.
- hair had been cut on the last two days.

Begin my day with a glass of milk. And whats up with my plan during semester break on previous post? I have designed a new theme on blogskin, I have cleaned my room.  Oh yah, buying new clothes still undone and i have to cancel of meeting boyfriend because I think I might be spending time with family more. Sister will be back home on this Friday. Yayy!   So without wasting my time by doing nothing at home, I sit in front of my notebook and blogging. Oh yeah! Im so surprise when I saw my new skin become skin of the day on Lets check by today. Thank you for all supporters and for those who rate mine. It was Tumblr inspiration which I found more neat and clean. Well people, I am more into tweeting this couple day. Do follow! Mention me here: @flouera

Im out for three days.

Hello people. This is really really quick post. I better be off to study after finishing type this entry and publish it then. Yah so, it might be typo as well. Srry, x. Well well, I have a camping tomorrow after the last paper of examination. Its maths. And definitely stressing me out. I will try my best but Im not hoping for A's anyway cause the questions are really complicated. For the camp, its actually a War Games of Asperians organized by Foundation in Agriculture Science, UPM. Actually, I feel some kind of laziness going there because I ever went for camp before and its really tiring and lack of sleep. Naahh.. and the worst part is the location in Tanjung Malim, Perak and there might have no line connection. Ah furthermore, i didnt bring my phone there. I will definitely miss boyfriend so much! I didnt get the same group with him. Erghhh..! I hope to see him there. Maybe and just maybe. Naahh.. so sad here. Thats all. I have to stop here and study. Study is definitely stress…