H E L L O !
Adilla Abdul or better known as Lala, 25 years old. I have been active in blogging since April 2009 so it is about 9 years being a content writer. I am a lifestyle blogger based in Malaysia which this blog consist of beauty, fashion, health and fitness, eateries and restaurants, travel and places, product reviews and also education using both Bahasa Melayu and English.
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H E L L O !
Adilla Abdul or better known as Lala, 25 years old. I have been active in blogging since April 2009 so it is about 9 years being a content writer. I am a lifestyle blogger based in Malaysia which this blog consist of beauty, fashion, health and fitness, eateries and restaurants, travel and places, product reviews and also education using both Bahasa Melayu and English.

CLICK TO VIEW MY FULL PROFILE

For blogger paid review and event coverage kindly reach me at nuruladillarahim@gmail.com

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Sometimes when I sat silently and muhasabah myself. I was thinking, why I hijrah masa dulu? Im wondering what's my point? Am I sincere? "Lala... are you sincere with yourself?" that unwanted voice came out of the blue, haunting me that moment. I was crying. I really disappointed with myself. If I really changed, why cant I leave my bad behaviour? Why Im still committing the same sins? Why cant I forget what I've done? And why lala... why, you're still looking at your past photos and you were thinking of being like that again..?

And I stop. This is...
What I dont want to happen. I dont want this hijrah! I dont want to dressing labuh-labuh macam ni. I dont want to such a very veeerrry gewd girl! This isnt Lala. This isnt ME! This is wrong, wrong step. Im not sincere. Well I was being culture shock since I entered university of doing foundation. I saw all women were wearing hijab, and I was only one girl who wasnt wearing hijab in my class, lepastu hijrah pun sudah macam trend. What is this??

He's right.. Im easy to get influenced. I admitted that. I think, but I was lucky. Well at least, I'M TRYING! Eventhough Im not sincere what I am doing now, but Im trying, Im learning, daripada tak tahu, lebih baik belajar. There's a wisdom why I hijrah.

After entered university again, kali ni pursuing degree pulak, God sent me friends which diorang sangat social and tak seperti macam my friends yang ala2 ustazah, alim-alim bagai. No, diorang tak seperti itu. But you know what, these friends are far much better than my friends yang tersebut. Even diorang social tapi jaga aku, even diorang perangai macam sial tapi still ingat Tuhan. They said.. "Lalaa... kita semua buat dosa.." At first aku dah macam terpengaruh sikit dengan diorang, hati aku goyah, iman aku semakin berkurangan.. Allahu.. inilah dugaan paling berat. Dan akhirnya aku lalai. I failed. Again. Hidup ini adalah pilihan, kita diberi dua jalan iaitu jalan kebaikan dan jalan kejahatan. I wasnt blame on them. I really sincere to be their friends. They're make me cheers, make me happy, make me open up my eyes and see this world! The world that full of life. Sebenarnyakan, tak salah berkawan dengan sesiapa sekalipun, biarpun diorang jahat atau baik, itu sendiri pilihan kita nak jadi macam diorang ke tak, siapa suruh kau terpengaruhkan. Salah kau lah. Akhirnya aku faham.. aku faham dah kenapa aku berhijrah awal-awal. Sebab inilah.. sebab kalau aku jumpa kengkawan aku sekarang ni, pasti aku akan jadi sial lebih teruk. Pasti aku akan jauh daripada Allah. Ya Allah.. alhamdulillah... I really comfortable to be their friends. Fandi, Aisyah and Jihan were my close-friends right now, for degree. They really taught me about life memandangkan aku baru 19 tahun, budak hingusan yang masih merangkak baru nak tengok dunia luar dan aku yang paling muda antara mereka. Sebelum aku terjerat dengan dunia, diorang banyak gila nasihatkan aku, marah aku also. Because I was the one who being a stupid. And about love also. I rather to be friends with them than be friend with this friend, named initial Z. Dia memang extremely alim, selalu tegur aku dan kadang aku sangat rimas teguran dia sebab aku perasan yang dia mencari kesalahan aku! Aku tahulah okay dia penghuni syurga bagai, tapi seriously dia dah lukakan hati aku tanpa dia sedar. Inikah kawan? Dia cela masa lampau aku lagi. Aku ni taktahu agama, tak belajar agamalah katanya. Ah pastu aku tinggalkan dia dan aku jumpa kengkawan baru ni. See, Allah bukakan mata aku. Allah tunjukkan mana benar mana salah.

Im still muhasabah myself. This moment, I want to get up. Slow-slow berubah sekali lagi. Nampak tak loser gila aku ni. Ikhlaskan hati. Tak mengapa, Allah Maha Pengampun. Selagi aku masih hidup, aku akan buat kesilapan dan belajar. I cant stand alone, I need to move in group. Macam join usrah semula, baca buku ilmiah and join any activities about religion. Haa thats all. At the same time, I wont leave my friends, they're really kind bagi aku, aku terima walau macam mana pun buruknya diorang, aku terima seadanya. Diorang je kengkawan aku dalam class ni, takde yang rapat selain mereka. Tapi dalam UPM ni aku memang ramai friends, kengkawan masa foundation dulu.

And Im still keep on muhasabah.. Why Allah presenting him in my life? When I think about myself, the past me. I was a bit socializing, im easy-outgoing and meet people randomly. Especially guys. Well I love to be friends with guys more than girls. Well, tipulah kalau kata tak mahu ada serious relationship, tak terfikir untuk berkahwin dan tak ingin bercinta. Itukan fitrah manusia. Its common thing. Yes, i admit it. I ever once think about having a serious-relationship, be in love and want to marry a man. But I was wrong at first. Of what I am doing masa couple-couple dulu, itu semua cinta monyet. It is not love. Love shuld be flow in Allah's way. Cinta sepatutnya mestilah ingin bersama-sama selamanya sampai ke syurga, ada ke sampai neraka? Of what I did in past semuanya menjerat ke lembah neraka. And alhamdulillah after hijrah, I stop everything. No coupling nor scandaling even crushing to any guy pun takde. Masa hijrah dulu hanya focus ingin mencari keredhaan Allah sahaja. Tak terfikir untuk berkahwin langsung sebab hati aku dah tertutup sepenuhnya pada lelaki sampaikan kawan advising me, jangan sampai macam tuh. Entahlah, keras hati ni. I felt like there's no feeling for guy no more sebab aku rasa dah tiada lelaki yang baik di dunia sebab dulu ex semua macam sial, so dia effect until now. I dont believe them. And loves, couples. That was wrong! I only believe love after married. Selagi tak berkahwin selagi tu aku takkan setia dan takkan bercinta. Itu prinsip aku. And so Allah, why Allah met me and him at this early moment? we're 19y. Muhasabah lagi, mencari persoalan. Rupa-rupanya aku dah dapat satu. His presence make me learn about loyalty. Serious aku cakap, tanpa dia aku takkan insaf punya! aku takkan rasa bersalah pun chatting dengan lelaki, keluar dengan lelaki. Everytime when I talk with guys, or met or near to them mesti aku akan fikirkan dia. Mesti terbayang-bayang dia. I think, I have him right now, buat apa perlu mencari lagi. He's perfect for me just the way he is. The one that I've been waiting for. Dialah, dialah orang yang aku perlukan. I need his strength to keep standing. Actually, I dont even know him totally, I dont meet him oftenly. I dont know whether he can stay loyal with me, he lie or not that was unsure. But its okay.. I dont depends on him, I can do it by myself. He's got his own life, Im nothing. I always get used to it, even with or without him, that doesnt even break me.

So whats up with me now?
Slowly, i took a step to change myself to be better day by day. Im staying away from people that know me. Im finding a piece of myself again. Kalau nak kenal diri sendiri, kena kenal Penciptanya dulu. Yes. Tarbiyyah. Cari hidayah setiap hari. Even kalau dah banyak kali jatuh, ni dah sampai tersungkur berdarah, akan bangun jugak walau sakit mana. Takpe, mungkin aku akan kehilangan kengkawan sebab kekadang they all ask me to go out but I refused. Everytime. I wish that they could understand. I wish that I wasnt a social girl who loves to hangout. Even berseronoklah kerap mana sekalipun, tapi hati tetap rasa kosong. Sepi.

Its okay.
One day I'll come back
in a new perspectives
in a new spirit
in a just the way I am.

Moga dikurniakan huznul khatimah. Amin.
Assalamualaikum. Hello people! I've been quite busy with the week of orientation.

Hectic. Tired. Sleepless.

The orientation week has been running for a week. Okay first, lemme tell you. On 2 September, I had registered myself as a UPM student. Mahasiswi. Alhamdulillah, everything went well during the registration. Well, I got the bottom level for my room due of having an asthma. What a luck . Ahha. So after take out the things to my room, my parents brought me to Bangi to have a lunch there.


At  photo clock.gif 4.30pm, the orientation had started. We've got no time to rest! I also make new friends there . I see there's so many friends who aged above than me. Im the only one who is 19y/o, they all ramai yang 20 and 21. Too young for 19y/o students who are pursuing degree. Alhamdulillah... rezeki masing-masing. Muda -muda dah buat ijazah. At night, all the new intake students were gathered at Dewan Besar, UPM to have a various topics of briefing.



Before and after. Still messy. Okay this is the old picture. I'll deco it more. Tengoklah nanti..

Mum and dad, who were accompany me during registration day. We were heading to UPM.


This is at my faculty. We had a brief about our course. I see student who were taking same bachelor with me is about 86 peoples. At Faculty Bahasa Moden dan Komunikasi.


Well. Looks like in an office, with a little swag handbeg on the desk. Ahha. Im registering my course thru online. 19 credits as well! Itu dah lebih actually. Demmit.




They were fighting cheers among the colleges. Too much fun! 




Thats all from me. I will update more about how my life begin as a University student who pursuing degree in Bachelor of Communication. See ya soon. 


29 August 2013

That night, little brother switch off the light and screamed
"Surprise !"

Haha. Epic fail. Yes, its my 19th birthday yesterday  photo themo10.gif. Didnt celebrated the birthday like grand but anyway it is more than enough. The birthday wishes, some advices, du'a. More than enough. Im happy. So here some speeches from my friends. I kinda overwhelmed. 

So here's from my murabbi, Lina. My bestfriend, Farah Adeeba and my special-more-than friend!  I love them. Thanks to all of you, such nice words. My family who wished me yesterday. 


Amboi.. these kids who busy talking about me thru whatsapp. They're my ex-roommates during pursuing study of foundation in UPM. Memang gini selalu. Aku selalu jadi victim. Im still remember when my previous birthday, tomorrow got biology paper and I sleep at the space in our room, they they all swarming around me and when I opened my eyes, they were singing a birthday song. Whaa. I wont forget that, girls! 

Okay, mama baked me a moist chocolate cake and cookies. Not bad even for she first attempt. At night, we're just ordering Pizza Hut that delivered to home. Thats all. Im happy enough.

Ayah called me.

"Assalamualaikum.. happy birthday.."

"waalaikumussalam... hee "

"haa.. mama bagi ape?"

"mama bagi gelang emas..."

"dilla nak ape?"

"hrmmm...."

"iPad ..?"

Wakakaka! This is what i thought lol. How can dad read my mind.


So after having dinner, I continue to pack my stuffs for university admission. He was being my commander. You know lah, girls aight  photo a2.png. They will bring a lot of unimportant stuffs, their clothes punya banyak sampai two to three bags. So he led me. I bring the sleeveless about 6 pieces, he ask to cut down bring 2 only. Baju kurung from 5 became 4. Jubah from 5 became 4. And there are 15 hijabs, due of wearing hijab depends on the clothes (theme/colours) that we wear, so he just let me to bring it all. For t-shirt muslimah, he ask me to remove clothes that seems sparse and thin, so that I wuldnt burden myself to wear inner shirt inside. The bottoms are all enough. Done.  He's very good anyway! Not badimage. This is one of the reson why I need him so much. I just didnt tell him the reasons. Haha. Malulah. I lucky to have him, kalau tak habis lotsa stuffs I will bring to the university like when I was entering for foundation long time ago.

This is before he lead me in packing stuffs. Penuh.

There's not much stuff in this box. I just put pillow, bedsheet, big mirror and light stuffs.

Banyak isnt? I'll try to cut down the clothes with his cooperation.

Taraa  photo 01.gif So these are all the stuffs I will bring to university. I reaaaally cant believe it sikit jea barang, not like before. So it will be easy for my dad to carry the things. Actually during his turn to pack his stuffs also, led by me. Haha. He brought the clothes punyalah sikit in which making me angry. I asked him to add more! He asked me to cut down! And that moment he folded his clothes nicely while me? Ala kadar je lipat. Such a mess. Haha. Thats all the story for yesterday and today, he is heading to KL. Fi hifzillah sayang. Drive safely. Gonna meet you there, in shaa Allah. Tajdid niat nak study. Jihad fi sabilillah. 
Yesterday my family and I was having iftar at KL. After iftar and performed Maghrib prayer. We went to Jalan Tar. So stuck. Crowded with public people and cars. Anyway, it feels pretty worthless shopping at there. I brought 2 casual abayas, 2 top knitted long-sleeves and 1 hijab (bawal 60'). Im so surprised when we were walking thru the shops suddenly my dad offered me to buy an outfit macam masa style dulu-dulu padahal aku langsung tak pandang dah. He said, "Takpe.. beli jelah, pakai dekat rumah.." and asked me to buy two clothes. Waa. such understanding dedi! Tahu-tahu jeh yang aku memang rindu pun nak pakai baju-baju cantik macam dulu. Here I left a photos of Im wearing that tops. Sorry, I dont show you the abayas. Kawaii !


Hi. This is a daily update. I actually have no interesting topic to talk here, but anyway I have brought new hauls today. A muslimah shirt/blouse from Zariya. Im sure some of you know that this kind of brand is expensive jugak lah, but the material is very gewd! I love its fabrics and got a lot of designs. Pretty, comfort and covering aurah in shaa Allah. Will leave the pictures of me wearing my new outfit. *sorry for the low quality of photos due to the bad lightening.

Credit photos to zariya-muslimah.com. Check out their website to know more.




Now, I have three muslimah shirt from Zariya Collection. Ops, the last picture wasnt a new haul, already bought from friend. It normal price was RM49 each and I was so lucky to get RM39 for 2 shirts! Kebetulan ada promotion at Aeon Anggun, Rawang. Kyaah! grab this cheap price.


 I enjoy listening to Concent by Nagi Yanagi and Run by Younha. Pretty songs.
Hi. I just received a result of which course that I get for pursuing degree.
Alhamdulillah, I got Bachelor in Communication (Mass Comm) at University of Putra (UPM) in Serdang. Eventhough I didnt get what I want, Bachelor in Science (Nutrition) which was my ambition since in school. How depressed I was . Only Allah know which is the best for me. Indeed, this course (Bachelor in Communication) is really suit for the one like me! Ahha. Journalist? Well, I know my future carrier is about media and communication which can make me famous one day!   Lolx. Shameless. I wanted to tell you briefly about my course.

Programme : Bachelor in Communication
Faculty : Fakulti Bahasa Moden dan Komunikasi
No Matrik : 174*4*
Total credit : 122 hours
Duration of study : 3 and half year.
Residential college : Kolej KelimaBelas

Offered to enter UPM at 2 September 2013. I also will stay at Kolej KelimaBelas which known as Kolej Serumpun. Grr, suckz. I dont know how will the condition to be but I guess I would never get comfort easily. Manja! haha. Besides, these are the course that I will study.


1. University Courses ( 18 Credits)
  • PRT 2008 Agriculture and Human
  • SKP 2101 Malaysian Nationhood
  • SKP 2203 Asian and Islamic Civilizations
  • SKP 2204 Ethnic Relations
  • BBI 2420 Oral Interaction Skills
  • BBI 2421 General Writing Skills
  • BBK 3410 Creative Talent Expression

2. Core Courses (71 Credits)

i. Core Courses (21 Credits)
  • KOM 3403 Public Oration
  • KOM 3433 Entrepreneurships in Communication
  • BBM 3401 Advanced Malay Language
  • KOM 3207 Introduction to Communication Theory
  • KOM 3431 Communication Research Method
  • KOC 3402 Basic Communication Strategies
  • KOH 3333 Changes and Communication

ii. Journalism Major (50 credits)
  • Introduction to Mass Communication
  • Basic photography
  • Photojournalism
  • Principles and Practices of Journalism
  • News Gathering and Writing Techniques
  • News Editing and Publishing Processes
  • Electronic Publishing
  • Computer in Communication
  • Media, Technology and Society
  • Issues in Communication, Media and Technology
  • Industrial Training
  • Final Year Research Project
  • Feature Writing
  • Journalism Legislations and Policies

iii. Human Communication Major (50 credits)
  • Communication Psychology
  • Small Group Communication
  • Interpersonal Communication Skills
  • Argumentation and Debate
  • Communication and Negotiation
  • Computer in Communication
  • Media, Technology and Society
  • Issues in Communication, Media and Technology
  • Industrial Training
  • Final Year Research Project

iv. Corporate Communication Major (50 credits)
  • Introduction to Corporate Communication
  • Organizational Communication Theory
  • Public Relation Strategies
  • Corporate Writing
  • Organisational Crisis Management
  • Communication and Negotiation
  • Media, Technology and Society
  • Issues in Communication, Media and Technology
  • Computer in Communication
  • Industrial Training
  • Final Year Research Project

v. Broadcasting Major (52 credits)
  • Introduction to Mass Communication
  • Basic Video Production
  • Script Writing
  • Radio Production and Presentation Techniques
  • Production and Presentation Techniques Video/ Television
  • Broadcast Management
  • Computer in Communication
  • Media, Technology and Society
  • Issues in Communication, Media and Technology
  • Industrial Training
  • Final Year Research Project
  • Basic photography
  • Principles and Practices of Journalism
  • Documentary Production

3. Elective (33 Credits)
  • Basic Advertising
  • Communication Ethics
  • Organisational Communication Skills
  • Public Relations Campaign
  • Process of Creativity in Advertising
  • Rhetorical Criticism
  • Leadership Communication
  • Independent Study
  • Qualitative Research Methods in Communication
  • Integrated Marketing Communications
  • Broadcast Media Appreciation
  • Broadcast Journalism
  • Development Communication
  • Development Journalism

What a kewl courses!  Basically, this is what I dream for. Work in media, in public, good socializing. Hihi. Eventhough I feel depressed because I study hardly, drag myself in the super killing subject of pure science and now my future tiada langsung berkaitan dengan science. Science + Me is like a water + oil. Tak ngam dengan science. Its okay dear self, leave it all... This is a gift from Allah. I already plan something for my future, my new life, no more science. Imma art-blood mixed and i love it anyhow. Thanks Allah.. Thank you so much ya Rabb. Today is the 12th Ramadhan. Furthermore, Goodluck my bestfriend, Farah Adeeba who will become an engineer of oil and gas, my roommates *during pursuing foundation in agriculture science, Dharshu, Yasmin, and Thahirah who will become a doctor soon , Eyfa which taking course of cell molecule at UPM also, Fydah who still in dilemma whether will continue study in Mesir for medic or study cell molecule in UPM, and all of my friends, cyber-mates do your best to achieve your dream! Success in life k for five years later. Also for my hahaha nothing  . Stay tuned,