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Allah tidak melihat pada permulaanmu, tetapi pengakhiranmu.

Sometimes when I sat silently and muhasabah myself. I was thinking, why I hijrah masa dulu? Im wondering what's my point? Am I sincere? "Lala... are you sincere with yourself?" that unwanted voice came out of the blue, haunting me that moment. I was crying. I really disappointed with myself. If I really changed, why cant I leave my bad behaviour? Why Im still committing the same sins? Why cant I forget what I've done? And why lala... why, you're still looking at your past photos and you were thinking of being like that again..?

And I stop. This is...
What I dont want to happen. I dont want this hijrah! I dont want to dressing labuh-labuh macam ni. I dont want to such a very veeerrry gewd girl! This isnt Lala. This isnt ME! This is wrong, wrong step. Im not sincere. Well I was being culture shock since I entered university of doing foundation. I saw all women were wearing hijab, and I was only one girl wh…

A story which is left untold

Hello. and Im back. Sorry for neglecting my blog too much, Imma way too busy and even will be sitting for a test tomorrow. There's something I have and need to tell here. I think that by saying this thru blog, which make me feel better than confess it to people such family or friends.. I wanna share here about my life now. I know that this is too difficult for me. Well I met new people, new environment, new culture. Of what I hv been seen now there's an obstacle shuld I face. Whether I win or lose that was the second matter.

Aight, ya know. I am not that alone. I will always be under His seen. 
I met some wrong people in which I expected them will become my close friend as well. But I am totally wrong! I made mistakes. Ye, everyone makes sins. Lotsa. And my mistake was I am too much expecting! So since I know that my friend which I expected was good, but now I am trying to avoid that friend. All praise to Allah that He opened my eyes and now I got my new friends which we'r…

Orientation week of the first intake students UPM

Assalamualaikum. Hello people! I've been quite busy with the week of orientation.

Hectic. Tired. Sleepless.
The orientation week has been running for a week. Okay first, lemme tell you. On 2 September, I had registered myself as a UPM student. Mahasiswi. Alhamdulillah, everything went well during the registration. Well, I got the bottom level for my room due of having an asthma. What a luck . Ahha. So after take out the things to my room, my parents brought me to Bangi to have a lunch there.

At  4.30pm, the orientation had started. We've got no time to rest! I also make new friends there . I see there's so many friends who aged above than me. Im the only one who is 19y/o, they all ramai yang 20 and 21. Too young for 19y/o students who are pursuing degree. Alhamdulillah... rezeki masing-masing. Muda -muda dah buat ijazah. At night, all the new intake students were gathered at Dewan Besar, UPM to have a various topics of briefing.

Before and after. Still messy. Okay this is t…

Happy 19th birthday, Lala.

29 August 2013

That night, little brother switch off the light and screamed
"Surprise !"

Haha. Epic fail. Yes, its my 19th birthday yesterday . Didnt celebrated the birthday like grand but anyway it is more than enough. The birthday wishes, some advices, du'a. More than enough. Im happy. So here some speeches from my friends. I kinda overwhelmed. 

So here's from my murabbi, Lina. My bestfriend, Farah Adeeba and my special-more-than friend!  I love them. Thanks to all of you, such nice words. My family who wished me yesterday. 

Amboi.. these kids who busy talking about me thru whatsapp. They're my ex-roommates during pursuing study of foundation in UPM. Memang gini selalu. Aku selalu jadi victim. Im still remember when my previous birthday, tomorrow got biology paper and I sleep at the space in our room, they they all swarming around me and when I opened my eyes, they were singing a birthday song. Whaa. I wont forget that, girls! 
Okay, mama baked me a moist chocolat…

New Hauls: Top knitted long-sleeves

Yesterday my family and I was having iftar at KL. After iftar and performed Maghrib prayer. We went to Jalan Tar. So stuck. Crowded with public people and cars. Anyway, it feels pretty worthless shopping at there. I brought 2 casual abayas, 2 top knitted long-sleeves and 1 hijab (bawal 60'). Im so surprised when we were walking thru the shops suddenly my dad offered me to buy an outfit macam masa style dulu-dulu padahal aku langsung tak pandang dah. He said, "Takpe.. beli jelah, pakai dekat rumah.." and asked me to buy two clothes. Waa. such understanding dedi! Tahu-tahu jeh yang aku memang rindu pun nak pakai baju-baju cantik macam dulu. Here I left a photos of Im wearing that tops. Sorry, I dont show you the abayas. Kawaii !

On the first august, I feel so lezi

Getting lazy today.Listening to Mirror - Justin Timberlake. 

Woke up at  11.30am and continue close my lashes and finally woke up after 30 minutes. And yes, I didnt sleep for the whole night  yesterday till Fajr. So Hi beautiful August, my favourite month ever! The month of my birthday. Hehe. Wont tell you the date, nanti dah celebrate baru bagitahu. Anyway, on twitter, facebook or perhaps instagram pasti akan kecoh2 pasal birthday lala. What a shameless promotion. Haha. Im kidding! So on that night, I was spamming someone chatbox. I know that he was sleeping, while I am so bored. "So, this is whatchu got when you're didnt accompany me."  Culd be that cute when Im with him. Well, I think Im not gonna contact him till the last Ramadhan, cause I am too busy. Haha. So do I care? Go talk to another girl lah.

I guess you guys wanna know who is this man It is difficult to explain, you may not understand.
However this is not my boyfriend. I wont get in love with a man before ni…