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I'm Lala. 8 years in blogging based in Malaysia. English writer. Bachelor's degree in Communication at Universiti Putra Malaysia. Former Radio Presenter at PutraFM and Former Journalist Trainee at BERNAMA. I currently work as Assistant Producer at Bernama News Channel (astro ch 502).

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WELCOME, READERS!

I'm Lala. 8 years in blogging based in Malaysia. English writer. Bachelor's degree in Communication at Universiti Putra Malaysia. Former Radio Presenter at PutraFM and Former Journalist Trainee at BERNAMA. I currently work as Assistant Producer at Bernama News Channel (astro ch 502).

View my complete profile

For advertising, collaboration, sponsorship, event coverage, product review etc, kindly reach me at lalarahim@hotmail.com


Nampak tenang pada zahir. Pada hati tah siapa tahu. Punya sekeping hati yang mudah untuk terguris, sekeping hati yang belum mencapai tahap mencintai Ilahi melebihi apapun, tapi secara perlahan-perlahan diri ini cuba memupuk dan membajanya jauh di sudut hati. 


Sebab dah penat jadi jahil, sebab tu cuba kembali pada fitrah. Menjadi baik. Alhamdulillah thanks Allah kerana telah menutup segala aib dan kekurangan ini sehinggakan orang-orang yang baru mengenaliku menyangka aku memang seorang yang baik, dari segi penampilan yang kelihatan seorang muslimah dengan bertudung labuh sopan tatacaranya. Alhamdulillah segala aurat dijaga dengan baik. Nampak macam solehah namun masih merangkak mencari tarbiyyah dalam diri. Setiap manusia pasti akan melakukan kesalahan, aku juga begitu, tak lepas. Tak lari dari sentiasa tersilap malah rasa semakin teruk diri ini. Paling susah, nak jaga batas pergaulan. Failed. Paling bodoh apabila aku menyakiti orang-orang yang baik dan menyanjung orang-orang yang tidak baik. Takkan kerana dulu aku pernah disakiti maka aku menyakiti pula orang lain? tanya aku pada hati. Ya. Sebab hati. Sebab hati ini sangat gelap dan rapuh. Mana mungkin terisi cahaya dan cinta di dalamnya. Sebab ke semua ruang hati telah diisi dengan kehitaman. Mana mungkin juga untuk aku menyimpan manusia di dalamnya. Kelak akan mengecewakan. Rabbi, terangilah hati ini dengan keimanan, suburkanlah jiwa dengan ketakwaan agar aku dilengkapi dengan cinta hakiki. Segala cerita pada masa silam dahulu, harus aku lupakan demi masa hadapan yang lebih bermakna. Fokus.


Disebalik ketenangan tersimpan berjuta rahsia. Hanya pada Ilahi disandarkan segala harapan. 

1 day left before I turn officially 20. Harap aku terus bermujahadah, perbaiki segala kelemahan diri, raih ilmu yang masih belum belajar dan paling penting, perlu cari erti cinta. Cinta biarlah tulus, bukan disirami dengan nafsu. Cinta pada Allah - melebihi segala benda dalam dunia ini. Takkan aku lupa nikmat yang Allah kurniakan, alhamdulillah. Sudah mencapai puluhan umur, aku perlu tahu apa yang aku inginkan. Dan lala, please control your emotions kerana syaitan takkan pernah putus asa untuk meniupkan kemarahan dan kesedihan dalam diri jadi jangan putus asa, dear self. Kau pasti menang. Dan lala, again, kalau dah jumpa yang baik hargailah. Apa yang lepas itu lepas, tiada jodoh. Yang pergi digantikan dengan yang lebih baik. Pasti ada hikmahnya. Buang semua, biar tinggal si dia seorang. Akan aku hargai diri juga, menjadi bunga mawar yang aku suka. Cantik pada pandangan tetapi sakit apabila disentuh kerana durinya yang melindungi bunga. Moga aku hijrah bersama hati bukan tudung labuh.


"Ada sebab mengapa kita mengenali seseorang itu dalam hidup kita, Sama ada kita perlu mengubah hidup dia, atau dia yang bakal mengubah hidup kita. Allah takkan hadirkan seseorang itu tanpa sebab."
Sayang, segala yang Allah takdirkan, pasti baik-baik belaka :)

Ada masa masa memang aku rasa gampang tahap macam apa hentah.

Kau tahu mengapa?

Aku dah terbiasa luka berdarah
Hati aku dah mula ranap
Sayap aku hampir patah
Rasa aku mahu punah
Aku ingin segera lesap

Saat aku terlupa yang aku ada Tuhan.
Saat aku terlupa yang aku masih punya iman.
Jadi terus terus aku begini.

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Mungkin kebencian telah menang meragut hati mudanya
Lalu dia menjadi buta mencari cinta di sisi kanan kirinya
Ditepis-tepis benci disuruh pergi

"Tuhann rangkullah dia. Tengok-tengokkanlah jiwanya yang sudah lecur itu. Pasti bisa Tuhan sahaja yang mampu ubati ". - reblog via gadispianist (credit)

Long hair problem. I experience all those! Haha. It is hard to keep a long hair, and especially to those who have had curly and coarse one. I wasted a lot of money to my hair. Using a lot of shampoo everytime I washed my hair and bought hair products such as serum, conditioner, hair mask and vitamins. Yup, hair is what I obsessed. Very. The last time I cut my hair short when I was 16 years old and after that, I kept it long but I did trimmed my hair into V-curve at the end when I was 18 years old. Okay, you guys cant imagined how long and creepy is my hair right now in addition it is hard for me as hijabi.

// That moment having a long hair and people may scream because they thought you are a ghost. Grr, I have ever experienced that before when my dad and my brother scream when they saw me and then when I asked them that I want to cut my hair they forbid me from doing that, hey whats the matter?!

That is why I put a name as "Ghostgirl" on twitter - It's because of my hair and that is what my family call me. A ghost. So yah, take a good care of your hair :>
It won't be that easy. If it's easy, it is not a love but lust. I doubt every feelings that hit me, because sometimes it doesnt feel true. But this time, I hope it is true. It is the right one. I always hope so before this but i dont deserved  photo th6-2.gif  I just dont want to be hurt and hurt. I'm scare. Scare about my thoughts. I would try to forget everything before and never look back. I always trying to be good and make good.  I hope everything is going alright in shaa Allah. If I really found something better, I just wont simply let it go. I won't. I would chase what is belong to me.  photo th086.gif

Take time... I will put my faith entirely to Him. And I shall fix my relationship to God first before I step into another relationship. Allah's willing..

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I just want to express the photos that I had captured today. Yup, I'm practising to capture some photographs with varies angles. I know my photos still need to practise a lot. // So my family and I went to have a break-fasting at the town.











I don’t think people love me. They love versions of me I have spun for them, versions of me they have construed in their minds. The easy versions of me, the easy parts of me to love. Who’s going to love the girl that can’t stop crying? The girl that hurts herself? The girl that is losing control? The girl that is so sad she can’t get out of bed? The girl that keeps pushing everyone away? Who’s going to love the monster in me, who’s going to love me now?

Because you can never go from going out to being friends, just like that. It’s a lie. It’s just something that people say they’ll do to take the permanence out of a breakup. And someone always takes it to mean more than it does, and then is hurt even more when, inevitably, said ‘friendly’ relationship is still a major step down from the previous relationship, and it’s like breaking up all over again. But messier. — Sarah Dessen

Love is always a good thing no matter how much it hurts. Even after it’s over, even through the pain, anyone who has ever really loved will tell you that they never regretted a second of it, no matter how much it hurt in the end. And if you tell me differently, I will tell you that you were not truly in love.


No, we cant be friend. And we cant fall in love.
To tell you the truth I don’t have much to offer. But I’ll still give you everything I’ve got, even if it’s barely a thing at all. I’ll give you late nights. Someone to talk to, someone to care for, someone who will always be there. A hand to hold, somebody to lean on. And if that’s not enough, just know you have all of me. I hope that’s enough.