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Despite the peace

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Nampak tenang pada zahir. Pada hati tah siapa tahu. Punya sekeping hati yang mudah untuk terguris, sekeping hati yang belum mencapai tahap mencintai Ilahi melebihi apapun, tapi secara perlahan-perlahan diri ini cuba memupuk dan membajanya jauh di sudut hati. 

Sebab dah penat jadi jahil, sebab tu cuba kembali pada fitrah. Menjadi baik. Alhamdulillah thanks Allah kerana telah menutup segala aib dan kekurangan ini sehinggakan orang-orang yang baru mengenaliku menyangka aku memang seorang yang baik, dari segi penampilan yang kelihatan seorang muslimah dengan bertudung labuh sopan tatacaranya. Alhamdulillah segala aurat dijaga dengan baik. Nampak macam solehah namun masih merangkak mencari tarbiyyah dalam diri. Setiap manusia pasti akan melakukan kesalahan, aku juga begitu, tak lepas. Tak lari dari sentiasa tersilap malah rasa semakin teruk diri ini. Paling susah, nak jaga batas pergaulan. Failed. Paling bodoh apabila aku menyakiti orang-orang yang baik dan menyanjung orang-orang yang tida…

Saat terluka

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Ada masa masa memang aku rasa gampang tahap macam apa hentah.

Kau tahu mengapa?

Aku dah terbiasa luka berdarah
Hati aku dah mula ranap
Sayap aku hampir patah
Rasa aku mahu punah
Aku ingin segera lesap

Saat aku terlupa yang aku ada Tuhan.
Saat aku terlupa yang aku masih punya iman.
Jadi terus terus aku begini.

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Mungkin kebencian telah menang meragut hati mudanya
Lalu dia menjadi buta mencari cinta di sisi kanan kirinya
Ditepis-tepis benci disuruh pergi

"Tuhann rangkullah dia. Tengok-tengokkanlah jiwanya yang sudah lecur itu. Pasti bisa Tuhan sahaja yang mampu ubati ". - reblog via gadispianist (credit)

Only people with long hair can understand the problem

Long hair problem. I experience all those! Haha. It is hard to keep a long hair, and especially to those who have had curly and coarse one. I wasted a lot of money to my hair. Using a lot of shampoo everytime I washed my hair and bought hair products such as serum, conditioner, hair mask and vitamins. Yup, hair is what I obsessed. Very. The last time I cut my hair short when I was 16 years old and after that, I kept it long but I did trimmed my hair into V-curve at the end when I was 18 years old. Okay, you guys cant imagined how long and creepy is my hair right now in addition it is hard for me as hijabi.

// That moment having a long hair and people may scream because they thought you are a ghost. Grr, I have ever experienced that before when my dad and my brother scream when they saw me and then when I asked them that I want to cut my hair they forbid me from doing that, hey whats the matter?!

That is why I put a name as "Ghostgirl" on twitter - It's because of my hair…

Doubt every feelings

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It won't be that easy. If it's easy, it is not a love but lust. I doubt every feelings that hit me, because sometimes it doesnt feel true. But this time, I hope it is true. It is the right one. I always hope so before this but i dont deserved   I just dont want to be hurt and hurt. I'm scare. Scare about my thoughts. I would try to forget everything before and never look back. I always trying to be good and make good.  I hope everything is going alright in shaa Allah. If I really found something better, I just wont simply let it go. I won't. I would chase what is belong to me. 

Take time... I will put my faith entirely to Him. And I shall fix my relationship to God first before I step into another relationship. Allah's willing..

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Insert a search box with customization

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STEP 1: For Simple Template user, copy the code below between <b:skin> xxx </b:skin>
For Classic Template user, copy the code below between <style> xxx </style>

<pre>#cookies-search-btn { font-size: 11px; letter-spacing: 1px; font-family: times new roman; font-style:italic; text-transform: lowercase; color: #c6b171; } #cookies-search-box { border: 0px solid #888888; background: black; margin-top: 5px; border: 0 none; width: 140px; font-size: 11px; letter-spacing: 1px; font-family: times new roman; font-style:italic; text-transform: lowercase; text-decoration: none; -webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; } </pre>
dont forget to remove <pre> & </pre> up there
STEP 2: Copy this code to anywhere you want to put it on your blog. Example on your sidebar or navigation. Well i put it on my navi.

<pre><form action='/search' id='searchthis' method='get' style='display:inline;'> <!-- Search box for b…

Daily Photographs

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I just want to express the photos that I had captured today. Yup, I'm practising to capture some photographs with varies angles. I know my photos still need to practise a lot. // So my family and I went to have a break-fasting at the town.










Because just being a friend are lots of messier

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I don’t think people love me. They love versions of me I have spun for them, versions of me they have construed in their minds. The easy versions of me, the easy parts of me to love. Who’s going to love the girl that can’t stop crying? The girl that hurts herself? The girl that is losing control? The girl that is so sad she can’t get out of bed? The girl that keeps pushing everyone away? Who’s going to love the monster in me, who’s going to love me now?

Because you can never go from going out to being friends, just like that. It’s a lie. It’s just something that people say they’ll do to take the permanence out of a breakup. And someone always takes it to mean more than it does, and then is hurt even more when, inevitably, said ‘friendly’ relationship is still a major step down from the previous relationship, and it’s like breaking up all over again. But messier. — Sarah Dessen
Love is always a good thing no matter how much it hurts. Even after it’s over, even through the pain, anyone …