H E L L O !

My name is Lala. Lala Rahim. Born on August 29th, 1994. It has been 9 years in blogging based in Malaysia. I currently work as Assistant Producer at Bernama News Channel on astro502. Follow me:-


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H E L L O !

My name is Lala. Lala Rahim. Born on August 29th, 1994. It has been 9 years in blogging based in Malaysia. I currently work as Assistant Producer at Bernama News Channel on astro 502. Follow me:-


For blogger paid review and event coverage kindly reach me at lalarahim@hotmail.com

I don't have idea why every things want to hit me at one time until I feel so giving up and I don't want to continue my life anymore. This time, orang tak boleh nak advice untuk suruh saya "be strong, Lala." Saya dah tak nampak semua tu. Apa yang saya nampak sekarang problem problem dan problem. Saya tak tahu macam mana lagi nak harungi semua ni. You know what,, every relations that I have now semua bagai nak runtuh. Semua orang nak tinggalkan saya. Satu persatu. One left. Yang masih ada sekarang ni tinggal tunggu masa je untuk mereka pergi dari hidup saya. I don't know what is my fault. 

Furthermore, saya ni jenis yang hati lembut fragile, saya akan cuba jaga hati semua orang.. Tapi hati saya? Remuk pecah. Mungkin saya yang beremosi kot. Sebab saya sangat value every relations yang saya ada include friendships, family and also relationship. One have left me tinggal dua lagi. Tapikan, yang dah pergi tu digantikan dengan yang lebih baik tau.

 Oh Lord I hope everything will be fine and I'm fine too. Saya harap apa yang berlaku menghimpit saya sekarang ni semua ada hikmahnya yang baik untuk saya tapi tulahh saya tak dapat nak menghadapi. Saya taktahu cara untuk bertindak, saya ni lemah orangnya kadang stupid pun ada dan saya tak pandai buat keputusan sendiri. Saya keseorangan. Dan memendam semua rasa. Saya ada luahkan dekat seseorang tapi dia buat tak endah je dengan masalah saya. Lepas ni tak payahlah saya dengan dia lagi, saya rasa saya perlukan dia dalam hidup saya tapi kenapa dia tak pernah peduli eh? Am I a burden? 

Oh Dear Lord, I realized that only you I have now. Untuk semua yang pergi tinggalkan saya, saya harap Allah temukan saya dengan orang yang lebih baik lagi dari yang lama. Ameen.
Another great chance to be there! As you know I also had several trips to another broadcast company like on my previous entry which you can check it on my archive. Besides, it's a great opportunity because it is related to my career soon haha in shaa Allah. I met the Djs of FlyFm and chit chat with them about broadcasting, radio and about umm their experiences etc. We went there under Broadcast Management course and by our own transport to Media Prima Company. Only 20 of us went there and another group will have a trip to EraFM.

Maggie was on air during our visiting to the conti but still, we can talked to her when she played the songs on radio. So, I asked a lot of question to Maggie

"Do you enjoy being DJ?"
"Are you a shy person? or could you motivate a shy person but s/he wants to be a DJ (which I was pointing at myself actually hihi)"
"How do you choose songs to be played on radio?"

Maggie answered perfectly and she's kinda motivated me because you know I'm doing practical as a DJ Radio at PutraFM but still, I am a shy person, I'm not confident during my airtime but of course I can do it technically, I'm just feeling so blank sometimes! Now I know to be a good DJ. It's not easy actually.. A DJ radio is a multitask-er also and you cannot do mistakes during airtime!

These guys are so fun! The DJs of FlyFM at frequency of  95.8

Because there's too many cameras so I don't know which one should I pose and focus to! haha

Oh yea, we're also entered the conti of HotFM because the Dj, Nadia invited us to get in! Nadia is the best and friendly. Ahh but she's not in this photo, she was busy setting up her phone to take selfie with us hahaha. She's friendly and gila-gila sangat. She also shared tips to be slim in photo hahahha

"Being courageous is not the absence of fear, but the conquest of it."

You know that everybody make mistakes. The problem is, the mistake that we've made be a point for others to condemn us. And hate. And burn us. They were trying to correct us but not in a correct way. It should be in personally not in public. I am writing to express my thought so whoever read this I really fcuking hope that this entry will not make my readers feel like I am so wrong typing this and I don't blame anyone here. But I do have my own opinions too. I hate when people condemn me in social media where everybody can see it and try to burn me too. Where is my wrong to them? I am barely know about them either. And why me??

Maybe.. it is because of Lala. It's Lala.
It's me. Myself. Maybe.. Could be.

I could still remember the first time I created my social networks is because to express my love on it. It was on 2010 I guess, as recommended by my sister and I like it though. So I used it to enhance my writing and never thought that I can collected lotsa followers which mean they love it. It was so exciting until...
People who know Lala followed me.
And then they attacking me. Make fun of me among others.

I'm very humble yet so stupid right now. I can't even accept it. Because I don't know where is my wrong via social medias and what I have done to them? Clearly I've done nothing. Did I make them annoyed? What I do is enjoying myself on cyber but I can't believe that the people in silence back stab me. They looked like they support but they don't. Besides, I don't have a courage to fight back, to confront them I don't. I only be careful and ignore it all but somehow, it couldn't chill me though.

I felt so emotional because I am too fragile, I have a soft heart and fighting is not my style. I bet you if you put me in a match with the kids, I might lose the game. I am not that kind. I'm still in a progress to improve myself here and my intention is Lillahi Ta'ala in shaa Allah. So when the society feel annoyed about me, I push myself to over-think about what is my mistakes to them? I couldn't find it. If I make mistakes toward my friend, I immediately say sorry to them and say I was just kidding. Immediately correcting myself and swallowing my ego to my friends. Settled.

Know what? I also lost a friend that I trusted the most and when I tell my problems to her, I expected she will support me but she don't. She also hates me now. I am a rotten apple in her eyes. But I have move on and get over her I'm fine with that.

Oh maybe Allah wanted to test me.

Last night, there's two girls knocked my room's door and tried to invite me to go to some place for sharing something benefit at 7.30pm after Maghreb. So after I took a shower, I went there. And it was only me with those two girls. We're sharing some Islamic views together and it was a good opportunity that I have had. After the we're discussed the topic, I suddenly disclose about my problem. Ironically I barely know them, they were strangers to me but I burst into tears. Yup, I cried. In front of those girls that I barely know. With honesty, I only tell what is going on and I couldn't stop myself from crying. It was an embarrassing moment actually because in my life, I wouldn't want people to see my tears because I don't wanna raise sympathy and I don't want to look weak. No. But maybe Allah wanted to send me a help through them. 

I feel so relieved.  Alhamdulillah all praise to Him, He gave me so much bounties.
Been persuaded by them also.

Because the mistakes that we've done mature us. I hope you learn a lesson from my story.
If only and if you talk to me and know me inside out.
I will make sure to not make a trouble to my friends.
I would like to say sorry also.