H E L L O !
Adilla Abdul or better known as Lala, 25 years old. I have been active in blogging since April 2009 so it is about 9 years being a content writer. I am a lifestyle blogger based in Malaysia which this blog consist of beauty, fashion, health and fitness, eateries and restaurants, travel and places, product reviews and also education using both Bahasa Melayu and English.

For blogger paid review and event coverage kindly reach me at nuruladillarahim@gmail.com

H E L L O !
Adilla Abdul or better known as Lala, 25 years old. I have been active in blogging since April 2009 so it is about 9 years being a content writer. I am a lifestyle blogger based in Malaysia which this blog consist of beauty, fashion, health and fitness, eateries and restaurants, travel and places, product reviews and also education using both Bahasa Melayu and English.


For blogger paid review and event coverage kindly reach me at nuruladillarahim@gmail.com

"O' Lord, I don't want to be alone, cherish my life."

Everytime I performed solah, I always pray (also wherever I go) that I don't want to be alone. I don't want to be left hanging. I'm scare.

Did you know that since I was a small kid, I cannot wake up and realize that no one is in home. I'll cry. Until now, even though saya dah masuk universiti, saya akan rasa sunyi tanpa roommate saya, I can't survive to wake up alone. Sebab dari kecil lagi saya memang macam tu. Pernah suatu ketika masa saya berada di tingkatan 1, saya sekolah pada sesi petang tapi saya sanggup bangun awal pagi bersama-sama dengan mama dan ayah sebelum mereka bergerak pergi kerja. But still, I felt alone, I watched a television, it's a cartoon which is my favourite, I cried while watching it.

Because.. I don't want to be alone.

I do text my roommate whenever she's going out. Doesn't mean I'm scare of ghost haha no! But I just cannot wake up alone. Do I look like a spoil child? Kiddo.

Sometimes, when I got someone that scare to lose me, I'm the one who walk away and leave them. But then I realize, I made a mistake before, I left precious people in my life, I feel so different and lonely without them. Now that they are gone, include him. Yah to tell you that I have him now but everything has changed, he wasn't a guy that I know before. Maybe it's true that he's mad at me for leaving him due to a silly reason, I admit it I'm wrong. Jadi bila semuanya sudah tidak seperti dulu lagi, saya hanya mampu tawakal dengan hubungan ini dan saya redha yang saya sudah "hilang" diri dia yang dulu, everything has changed, saya terima dengan redha dan saya bersabar dengan hubungan yang tak seberapa ini, ada dia pun dah cukup bagi saya. Kalau ada jodoh ada, semuanya perlukan masa. Time heals. I'm not gonna lose my faith, whatever will be, will be. I don't want to expect more about being together with him because I know high expectation can lead to a broken heart. I don't want to be alone, yes. And if he doesn't spend his time on me as much as I need it, I'm not gonna go talk to someone else, instead I will stay waiting. I think that Allah just want to test me, to teach me how to stand on my own two feet. I'm strong. I just hope that my relationship with him will be better than before, even though it is not so sweet like anyone else, but I am thankful enough for having a man like him, I know that he's a kind person. I learned a lot of things by knowing him.

"Improvise," as he said.
I left my bestfriends too.

We are human and, therefore, are creatures filled with urges. Our wants aren’t always logical, they aren’t always wise, nor are they always beneficial – they’re simply pleasant. Being alone is a physical description (meaning when we are alone, we are just not with people), while loneliness is a feeling that often is experienced as negative and painful. 

I need some help.
Ermm the first day was a bit gloomy because some of my family members didn't come back on the first syawal. I performed syawal prayer but I forgot to make nawaitu before taking shower lol, I always forgot to do that every syawal.

Location: Changkat Jering, Perak.

Make up by myself. Setiap kali beraya di rumah saudara dekat kampung, masing-masing tertanya saya ni anak siapa sebab bila make up mereka cakap muka saya lain haha ada yang cakap muka saya macam seorang pelakon wakaka. Okay let's move to another pictures of me!

All right, that's all my photos to share. Let's take a look my family's pictures.

And hi, this is my little brother. The youngest in my siblings, handsome tak? Tak.

Reading magazine konon, ee mencuci mata tengok gambar perempuan lettew 

So how much duit raya did you get ?
Hi, this is my little sister. She's a weirdo.
She's doing henna like a tattoo on her both arms, I told you she's weird hahaha
Hi, this is my parents, mum and dad. Special persons.

Dad asked me to candid his photos hahah. He was eating rambutan right after visited his uncle's house.

This is my little cousins, as you can see a boy (very right) trying to kicking his brother, we called him "kecik" he's a naughty boy paling nakal dan kaki loyar buruk memang power haha, memang dekat kampung dialah paling bising sekali. Ada sekali tu dia sembang, durian dekat atas pokok manggis, tupai letak! Ketawa adik-adik saya. Lepastu dia marah abang dia, "penat-penat mak letak nama kau sedap-sedap baik panggil babi je" hahahhaha nakal.
Keluarga sebelah ayah. Lebih besar sebenarnya kalau berkumpul lagi. So that's all, di sini saya ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin kepada semua pembaca blog saya. Hari raya yang kedua baru meriah sebab semua adik beradik ayah balik kecuali dua orang sepupu saya yang lelaki je tak balik sebab diorang nak beraya di KL ceit. Ok till then, x
I have siblings of different backgrounds but came from the same mother's womb. If you know my family well, you will see a lot of differences between me and my siblings. We three have our own style and personality.

My sister, Aida, is kinda like a gothic, she loves goth, punk style and she like black so much. She pursue diploma in Arts and Design at UiTM Sri Iskandar. She's kinda stubborn and rough too, and involve in fights a lot since school, she's one of the girl that her name up in the expelled list. Almost! haha Futhermore, she shops at Zalora so much. All of her shoes and accessories are from Zalora. And of course, black is her appearance. Sometimes I called her hipster hahahaha. She's friendly, easy to get along but not handle. When I bring her together to hangout with my friends, she's the one who talk so much until my friends ignore me and chat with her blergh.

And my brother, Amir. A boy but complicated. He's so choosy in styling, only wear branded clothes that fit his body perfectly. I kinda annoying with him because he spend so much in buying clothes. He loves that one teen stylo boutique at Taiping, Perak (he used to go there and a regular customer got faithful membership there) and High Cultured brand. Even clothes at Padini and FOS not in his list. I called him Kpop because he styled like those Kpop-boys and he loves watching Korean drama and reality shows. Anyway, he has a dark skin which I called Kpop-black. He has OCD like me but I'm hardworking, he's lazy.

While me? I am the lowest standard among my siblings. I style in a humble way. I don't care about brands and my clothes are cheap and affordable as long as the clothes fit me. I wear a cheap XL bawal that I bought from Muaz Textiles at Jalan TAR. And I love to wear jubah and blouse, I think jubah is easy and simple to style. Save money. I wear make up everytime when I'm going out and I will make sure that I'm not going out without getting my eyebrows and lips done. I wear skirts everywhere and it is hard to see me wearing trousers. I only wear trousers for extreme activitites. Even when I go through jungles, I will wear a comfort jubah with legging inside haha. That's all.

Sometimes, we are hard to get along because of different personality but trust me, I am an overly-attached sister. I like to kiss and hug my brother and sister a lot even actually they don't like it. I am a divergent, I'm natural. I'm independent among them because I am the eldest so I have a lot of commitments and responsibilities to take care of my little brother and sister. I wish they are all happy and safe.
I admit that I'm not a forgiver, to those who hurt me before or doing something nasty towards my dignity. All I do is, forget that person, freeze the moment and keep moving forward. I am too fragile. Too broken to be breakable.

Time heals
Faith gives strength.

These two things really work for me. Without time and faith I will never accept them anymore to be friends again.

And without love, I may be couldn't accept him. There's a part of him that I disliked, but then I forget the bad side because I do think about his kindness too and the good memories we had . Not all about him that I like, I'll get used to it someday.

Talk about accepting. Till then, x
You speak nicely in front of me but then you give me a piece of filthy insinuation behind me. Do you have a problem with me? You know zero about myself so you take an opportunity to judge me through my social medias, don't you know that in virtual, 90% contains untrue information about oneself. You cannot trust people through it.

So do I. You can't trust me cybernetic-ally. Yeah I know you will say that our social media pages show who we are, kan? So that you will lose them in reality because all in your mind is based on people's social networks.

So you will lose my real personality in reality life. Au revoir.

I don't mind at all, my life alhamdulillah is completed, sufficient, peaceful and comfortable. Say whatever you want, call me whatever you want and label me whatever you thought. I am no bother argue with people like you.

So, you really want to know about me in cyberspace don't you? Let me introduce myself back to you oh people, my name is Nurul Adilla but it feels more comfortable if friends and strangers call me Lala, Dilla is only for family-called or close one. I am 21 years old pursuing degree in Communication in Universiti Putra Malaysia. I am a blogger and doing freelancer, I like to write  photo a1-1.png, a lot. I share my thoughts and wish to motivate the others, I enjoy expressing what I have shared but not to impress them. I am hot bloody nahh I mean a bit hot-tempered but I can control it sometimes, nobody can control myself, as I am a divergent, I give no advice but will be a great listener to my friends in case if they need me. I have good friends surrounded me, no fights no argues with my friends because fighting isn't my style. I have a sense of humor, being extremely hilarious among my family and friends, I will show how annoying I am to the close one but sometimes I can be so quiet when I was surrounded with men. Awkward  Besides, I talk a lot in front of the mirror, when taking bath, when doing nothing yeah I'm insane, actually I want to improve my languages so that is why I did monologue thingy you see.. how struggle I am to improve my languages, people just know to critic  photo a3.png. Furthermore, I am a very organize person, I do listing what I need to do in a short-term and also long-term. A friend called me perfectionist / OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) person because I can't stay in a messy, stinky place and if I do some works I'm gonna make sure that I finished it perfectly! This is how I am. Everyone has a past so do I, but I won't talk about past no more cause I am new, I am fresh, and I am feeling so ambitious! 

 photo flower6.gif Hahah I can no more describe about myself there's nothing about me to inspire. Dan terlalu banyak! Tapi semua description di atas adalah benar.